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Drew: You're here because you're michael man.. you're the awesome cowboy, you made it to this TV show, whatever. Hopefully something will happen out of this.. and if it doesn't, i'm just saying... if i win 500 grand you better believe it i'll be helping you a lot.
CB: you konw, the thign is.. i found myself in this game. i did not know myself. i can say i'm ready to go back and be a father like i should be. i'm ready to be a man. because of this man i'm able to do that. i learned i could take something back from everyone in this game, and be a man because of it. the people i have problems with, even my family members.. because i know it's gonna be different now.
Drew; see that's why this happens for a reason.
CB: and i have a friend... I was so much in debt coming in, and he was like.. really down on me.. he was worse than me in debt and i did not jump on him. i mean they had so many credit cards.. i helped him, and now he's gonna wanna know why i did not put him down on contact. I wanna go back because I love him. he was the first friend i ever got after my divorce that i enjoyed being around. I wanna sit down and tell him the reason why I didn't... it's not talkedness it's straight up. he's gonna wanna know why he didn't get to share it with me. and i'm gonna go this is why.
Drew: Do you think it's so cool how God makes things happen for a reason and you don't really know why it's happening or what it's happening, and you look a couple years later and you go "that's why".. and taht's why I'm here right now. I think that's so cool, because you never really know sometimes why things happen before they happen. you figure them out later and go "ha! that's why it happened.'
Drew: i wanna say one more thing.. you say you get s**t on a lot.. i'll tell you one thing, you're always giving yourself up for other people.. because that will pay off.. the more you give up of yourself, the better you're gonna be off.. and God sees everything.
CB: and i agree. what was i gonna say..
Drew: about that guy orsomething? about that friend?
CB: No. the thign is.. you're right. i spent all my life helping others. putting others before myself. i'm gonna tell you everything i am... and I don't gotta pressure you.. in the jury members they're not here i can actually be myself now.
Drew: that's what I say dude.
CB: at the age of 17 i was vice president of explorer's.. explorer's.. it's all over.. it's young people that wanna be police officers in the future. we did security, we did so much. i had to help run meetings, when president wasn't there, i had to run the meetings. at the age of 18, this is where it gets shocking; i joined the fire department, volunteered, first responder.. search and rescue... storm spotter, i did all that at age 18 and 19. i was doing this in high school, devoting my time to others. 19, get married. still doing all that. i've done it for 2-3 years, all that. pager going off, first thing in the morning, hurting' my relationship.. every time the pager went off... i got paid.. nothing. i did it all for free.
Drew: my uncle was a volunteer firefighter. he's a haircutter and he's a volunteer firefighter.
CB: at the age of 20, we moved to colorado on our own. loss prevention out there, more or less, for a bit company. the day that i was gonna put my notice in.. the boss wanted to send me to speech class (english class) because he saw.. I was putting in 70 hours a week. he wanted to invest their money sending me classes for my report. they wanted to do me a favor because i was doing them a favor. I'm actualyl putting in a notice today.. my ex-wife is homesick.
Age 21, divorce. I go to EMT school.. i let my license collapse more or less, started working for Walmart. worked for walmart almost 2 years.. working my a** off for nothing. zero. i was head of safety, plus working department. i was cashier, i could do anything in that store. if they needed help i'd do it.
Drew: How long was it between divorce?
CB: My divorce was final. April's mom worked for walmart. Within that year, April's mom saw how good i was. what's so bad.. is she knew two girls i screwed from wallmart.. and she knew. April knows like.
Drew: is she a lot like April?
CB: Yeah.. attitude spunk. I grew to like her. my ex-wife was like that, and i knew from there, i wanted a girl who spoke her mind. my ex-wife wasn't able to do that.. and she threw on she wanted a divorce. my divorce, you'd be like, i'm sorry dude. so now I'm a father all of a sudden, and I love it, I wouldn't trade it for the world. I think i'm a great father; we get along so great, and i've spent all of my life, it seems helping others.. and I thought this would be my break.. just a rest from everything. But this is no break.
Drew: I think everybody in this house deserves two weeks to do whatever the hell they want?
CB: more than that a month, like spend time with their family! and i will probably have 2 weeks.. i'll take 2 weeks and go straight for work. i'll actually start looking for a job. i mean i'm not done. i must be honest with you, i'll sit down with April and get one of us in school.
Drew: any type of advice, it would be like...
CB: see, the job I got... I'm not trying to brag... the last job I had, and that's why he said he'd give me my job back.. in my interview, I did so much; loss prevention, gellar... i got about 3 years law enforcement. my interview, here i am... i was across from him and tell him, he gave me situations .. he goes, such and such.. this is, you don't know what the policy is, but i'm gonna give you 3 situations... I told him how it was supposed to be done. it was like, I'm going to be honest with you, my friend. I usually hire degree people, safety degree people, because it shows me that they're dedicated.. this job, you more or less needed a degree. he says I'm not promising you you get this job, but you impressed me today. he said this to me, and we get along so well. he says i'm not guaranteeing i'm giving you this job, but that I am impressed with you.
CB loves it how everyone surrounding him had degrees, and he was the "low man", felt lower because all of them had degrees. It was just... i was honored by him saying that. i wanted to move up in walmart, i loved walmart so much. there's more to that.. so many managers told me "you give so good interviews". I give good interviews but .. move me up. this is how i am; if i don't think i do it, i'm not going to set myself up for failure. i knew i could do assistant manager job..
Drew: This one company, Gortex, is no matter what you have, high school degree, college degree, diploma.. they'll give you a raise every year no matter what because they felt you gotten better at your job. they don't need to promote you to a job you don't know.. but you've done this job before so you're getting better at it, so you're getting more money. this company is so successful for doing it like that.
Gortex is a company that makes fabric water resistant. It's like for golf... and boots.. it's a really cool company.
Drew is saying how great this company is, and that CB should have been paid more for working 3 years at Walmart.
Drew: all they did was cold-calling. making over a 100 grand, for working for them over 30 years. and I think that is so reasonable.
CB: I cannot understand why I cannot get money for what I do. i work my a** off for the customer. i know how to work retail; i could own retail and successfully.. I know i could get it going good.. because I know... I know how to run the cash registers, I know how to talk to the customers.. I know how to get customers and I have not got a degree.
Drew: but you know, in the trenches.
CB: I've had assistant managers as friends. that friend i didn't let contact.. he was an assisant manager for walmart, and we met that way. and you know; i just, you know.. that's the thing. I would love to do something; I would love to help my family as well and be happy. and... you know.. I did not like the jury put me down about me saying, "poor country boy".. I'm poor.. my bank account before coming in was negative.. and I'm like, taht is who I am.. because I am poor. It's like, that is a reason why i think that you know, I don't know.. it's just
Drew: taht's why you're here.
CB: I'm here for my family. every one of us.. a lot of us on this jury did not have it great growing up because our parents did not have the money. I cannot push that because that is not what I wanted to hear. other juries; that's what they wanted to hear. each jury is different; this jury is about just all this game. It's jury, it's been different.. it's like you don't know until you get jury out there.
Drew: That's the thing man.
CB: we f**ked up.
Drew: man i don't know. .the weird thing about life is.. i didn't know how it was gonna go tonight with jury. getting into financial stuff.. we are gonna win half a millino dollars here. the weird thing in life is, i dont' wanna get discriminated because of the family I was born into. you don't know what kinda family you get born into. you might have a family okay financially.. but .. you don't know. that's all a matter of luck.. whatever family you're born into, that's the lifetime you're going to have. That's why I never hold it against anybody and I hope nobody holds it against me.
CB: I honestly think you have a fair shot with the jury here.
Drew: hopefully that's the way it is but..
CB: like i said, both of us will be happy... we'll talk to julie, we'll be happy. i would love 500,000. if they're gonna do it on the game, that's what they have to factor in.. i've won one veto, you won one veto. if that's what they wanna go on, fine. but they also gotta be.. I'm okay with whatever they do. The thing is, you want the 500,000.. i want the 500,000 because i'm sick and tired of being poor.. you want to tell people "this is my money this is not my parents".
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