Ragan" after a week of you setting me up and having you have brendon come up and bully me....i am at my wits end. You play the game big and bold. I wanted to be a bold and big player so I get that. I don't like saying/being a mean person. I am a very personal person. We just need to have a conversation
Your version of events are not how things actually went down. I think you somehow think i threw you under the bus. I was your friend in this house, i did genuinely like you. I was the one person who was in your corner, not to take away you were in my corner as well. But what has happened the past 2 weeks, takes it to a whole new level
If im being attacked over and over again and for no reason
Rach: whatever you said i don't even take into consideration because i know who u r as a person. I respected your game play
Ragan: so is your anger at me because of that
Rach and the theatrics you put on I don't feel were as bad as you (?)
Ragan: When you see the dvds you will see what we all saw
They get up to go tot he Taj room for privacy
Ragan" I forget what morning it was, it might have been Wednesday before you left. I was with brit and hayden..I was like i really want to have a conversation with rachel and brendon. I see a lot of similarities int he 2 of us
I think the 2 of us love attention. in my 30's i chilled out a lot from when i was in my 20's. Something happened because everywhere i went drama would follow. then when i hit 30, i went holy cow. The only thing that is constant in all of these circumstances was me. My mom abandoned me when i was an infant. when you do something controversial, there is a difference between good and bad attention. Your are gonna come to a fork in the road when you hit your late 20;s. I think you have been so wound up in it that you may not be genuinely aware of stuff that has gone down so far this season. i thought you were aware, after today..I think maybe you are starting to see what some of the implications of you acting like this in the house
Rach, I say this with all sincerity...the person i hung out with the first few weeks fo the game. Not only am i going to vote for her to stay in the house, Im gonna make sure I look out for her. You morphed into something different in this game and it was just hurtful. The 1st time you won HOH..it was a bit much
Rach: it wasn't on purpose
Ragan: on purpose or accident it was a bit much
Rach: i was crying because I had just gone through so many levels of emotion.
Rag: we have all gone through that on some level. I just had a shitty week. I understand what you are talking about. Believe it or not I was happy to see you go, but another piece of me was sad, like genuinely sad
Really at the end of the day, respecting each other is the most important thing. when brendon apologized to me for making me a half not. Impulse control makes or breaks you and says something bout your character
As pissed off as I was at you and the 1st thing you did when you came out of the diary room and you came to the HN room to apologize, that is a testament to your character
Rach: In my real life experience, I don't have drama following me around
Ragan: I can only judge you in this game
Rachel: as soon as i got out of the house i read a book and i felt a release, like a brain release. I could never see us fighting like this in real life. I just think that i had such my back against the wall for me and brendon to stay in the game. I was really scared. Fear took over me
Ragan: it was you and brendon. People really do get along in this house.
Rachel: I know, but the thing is you guys wanted to split us up
Ragan: there might have been people who targeted you because you were a strong pair, it was not me. You might have thought i jumped ship from the 2 of you because you were a strong pair, that is not true..it was the behavior |
