The door squeeks and she whispers sorry to Jen who is sleeping. Goes to HOH BR. After using Br she leaves HOH and goes out to balcony couch and sits with Jam who is reading bible.
Asks Jam if she ever feels like she is not cut out for this game.
Jam: No
K: Sometimes I do
J: Says that if she leaves the house she has no regrets how she carried her self
K: She just prays and when it's her time, it's her time.
J: The only time you will have regrets is when you Start lying.
K: do you consider keeping peoples secret a Lie?
J: No
K: If I was on the block I would hope people would just tell me the truth. I just hope that doesn't happen, I can handle the truth, I just don't like to be shocked.
J: if you lie then you will always look back and ask what if I didn't tell this lie or that.
K: I haven't lied
J: I know, I know
J: I'm still undecided
K: That's OK
J: Both have respected me so I have not experienced some things that others have so My decision is not so concrete.
K: I've stopped saying things, Ed tried to intimidate me and it worked. Yelling at me and calling me names. I'm not saying anything anymore. I've washed my hands of it.
K: I asked and prayed for knowledge so then you just have to trust.
K: That's the thing, he could have come up to me and talked to me and talked in a normal voice.
J: he is inconsistent, values mean a lot to me.
K: I know it's tough but I just didn't want you to feel pressure from me.
K: He verbally threatened me in front of everybody, said he's coming after me.
J: There is always a way to get out of it. There's HOH.....
J: You've gotta believe that. You've gotta get back in it.
K: I do feel better now.
J: Don't even give him credit.
Jam: (Something akin to) when your not yourself, it stands out
K: says Ed says she never talks to anyone. Says she has lots of one on one convos and he doesn't see that.
Jam respect the fact that he says he's coming after you. Do something about it, that's all you can do. He's only one person. When you go into that DR you only have one vote, everyone only has one vote. Who ever you are, that's who you should be. If you don't feel like sharing something, don't. Don't feel pressured.
K: I don't like to talk to much. I'm glad I talked to you.
Jam: you were quiet, then you came out and tried it (Talking and sharing) and it didn't work for you. Go back to being you.
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