da: i have a lot of things to deal with when i get out of here, a lot. but some things make it more difficult to deal with. its hard when you dont know what is going on.
z: same for me, same for me.
da: but the fact that we are in here, some things are different, you cant compare.
z: i can compare.
da: but not you and me.
z: you have the chance to search your brain and figure out what you want in life, and what it is that you want to do. things move at a different speed in here, and that can drive you crazy. for all i know when i get out of here i have a second chance, but maybe im doomed, she has moved on, i dont have a job outside of here.
da: shut up you said you have a job.
z: but you never know, ill call and see if i can jump in on a project. i know she is waiting for me in the end (feeds choppy, then FOTH)
z: but im not.
z: trust me its good or bad, i see everything for me.
z: just things are so much slower in here, there is more to think about, what you had when you came in here, you may not have the same when you leave.
da: thats right things will not be the same at all for me.
z: ill have my parents, maybe my career takes a turn, i hate thinking aobut those things, it drives me crazy.
jen arrives.
z: we are having a little heart to heart. im just lying here.
da: youve alwasy been one to lay here.
z: just waiting.
jen: its the loudest place ever because you can hear every room in the house.
da: i never sit out here.
jen: i used to back in the day. now i feel like if i sit here its like envading hoh, but when i was hoh it was fine.
z: this is my hoh. this is as close as ill get.
z: im thinknig about making green tea.
da: im debating. im so full, eating a cupcake that was not the right time.
z: are you going to make it in a pot or a cup.
jen talks about the chess pieces.
da: dont touch me or ill kill you. ugh.
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