Brendon walks in to the room and sighs
A : I am out!
B : Stop, Stop thinking like that!
A : Whatever it is, it's just tough" He starts to tear up
B: Stop! You gotta know this isn't easy dude, this game is not easy"
A: I know
B: It's a mental mind F, we know that! you are getting beat down right now (Andrew nods) but you are not out. Changes here on an hourly basis, you f'n know that"
A "yes"
B: When matt was HOH I was f'n sure I was going up, nothing is certain. You need to now play smart. I know it's not easy, but you need to, you need to have a house meeting, if nothing more than to go around to the house apologize one by one. That is easy for you"
A wipes away a tear and says "I know"
B ( who is sitting on Andrews have not cot while Andrew is laying in it, leans closer to him and whispers) "You are a f'n tough competitor and you don't give in this easily"
A "I can't do the social game, it's hard"
B "That is why I am here to help you man. That is why I am here to help you."
A (in a louder voice) After tomorrow's speech....."
B "I know. Don't do it"
A laughs and wipes away more tears
B "I don't care what you say when you are leaving, but I don't want you to give up. If you plan on giving that speech, then that is it. It's done"
A " I will try and see if I can get a meeting. I just don't feel good here anymore"
B "I know you don't man. Take some time, let your emotions calm down....you know what I mean? Seriously? I'll tell you what man, you are one of the strongest competitors in this game"
A grabs a tissue from the bedstand and dries his eyes. "yeah, I know. Physically I know I can do it"
B "No no no, I am not talking about physically I am talking about mentally. There's a reason you wee right there with rachel and I, there is a reason you were right there with me in the f'n spelling competiton."
A "I let you win. I knew you had more letters than me so I switched the E and the U, but I didn't know you were going to end up getting a bigger word" Both A and B are laughing now at the memory of the competition.
A "I didn't know you had the last four, whatever, I forgot your word already, but I didn't know you had the last four letters"
B "I didn't know you threw that"
A "Yeah, I switched the E and the U, but I didn't know you had that...what were the last four letters?"
B "I N G"
A "Yeah, I N G I didn't know you had those and your word ended up being bigger than mine so..." They are both still laughing over the competition
B " That was crazy man. That is why, that's why I don't want to see you go! You are the ONE PERSON in this game that has played selflessly"
A (I think he said) "I want to give the trip to britney, I want..."
B " You deserve to be here more than anyone and I am not going to let you go out like this dude"
A shakes his head "I can't have the conversation with someone if I am going up to them....he starts to laugh as he chokes up. B puts a hand on his arm
B "You are not going to have a conversation with any one person, you are going to have a conversation with the house"
A "So you are saying I have to apologize for coming after you two (B and R)
B "No no no, just say, I am sorry for what I said at the meeting, i was upset, I let my emotions get the better of me. I was a have not. I am just an emotional person....and everyone laughs cuz we all know it's true. I don't want people to put you out because of what happened to you today. That is crap! You deserve to be here way more than kathy. It's not f'n fair if you are gone, on any level! So I am not going to let you continue to f'n sulk in this room, thinking that yu are gone when you are not~! Enzo was like "dude, what the f happened?" and I decided to not tell him anything....( can't make out the rest of it because Brendon is almost mouthing the words instead of whispering them)
A replied Right to whatever he said and then says "okay I will try my best"
B says "not your best, your immaculate...you gotta give it your all dude, at least one last horrah. If you have the meeting, feel like it didn't work and you go home, then give the speech. but until that comes, you don't give up. You don't let these mother f'er's beat you! I get beat down every day in this f'n house"
A "You at least have someone to go to, I have been trying to deal with it on my own"
B "You always have me. I know it's hard, but seriously I am here for you dude. You are the one person in this house that I seriously think deserves to be in the f'n finals no matter what. Cuz you are the one person that plays this game as hard as they can, and does stuff for other people, is loyal"
A really starts to choke back the tears here, having trouble keeping emotions in check
B "I am telling you this because I don't want you to leave here, you deserve to be here more than f'n anyone! You need to pull yourself up by the boot straps and represent all of us f'n Jewish people on national television.
A "you do't understand, You can do it because you are part of the social scene, I an't do it because I am not part of the social scene"
B "dude, I can' tbe fake If I don't like someone in this house, or if I can't have a conversation with people I can't fake it. that is what is going to bring me down. You are who you are dude and you are a genuine person and that is why I have so much f'n respect for you. yu have gotten to where you are in this game by being who you are. Don't shy away from it, embrace it. Let them know youa re an emotional guy. You let your emotions get the better of you! Ragan's been in here crying, if anyone is going to understand it's going to be ragan. You have a very good shot. You have me, rachel, ragan, maybe..."
A I ave to talk to Brit, she keeps walking away from me for some reason"
B "No, you don't talk to anyone, you have a house meeting"
A "Oh, okay"
B "You sit in here, take your time, think about what you are going to say"
A "when do you think I should do it?"
B "When you feel you are ready, when you feel you're ready. It's a few hours from now, there is no rush. I will be very disappointed in you if you let these mother f'ers get the best of you and you think you are going home. You are not going home this early. Everybody has been saying all day that you have a really good shot to stay here"
A "I know what you are saying. I got it, I got it, I screwed up"
B "It's oka, what is done is done. Be strong man, be strong for your daughter. Let her know how awesome her father is. You're a f'n good man" (andrew again starts to choke back tears at this)
A "Can't think of thoughts about my daughter, it makes it so much worse"
B "Let her be your stregnth, if nothing else. I can't tell you how much I respect you man. Coming into this house, not knowing what was going t obe here, sticking to your faith. Dude, you are the one person in this house that I will have unconditional respect for"
A "of course"
B " You are the one person here that I know is true to themselves and is not changing themselves. You can do this. You have run marathons, you have (gone drafting?), come on, this is childs play compared to that. think about mile 20, mile 21, mile 22 what is the only thing keeping you going
A "determination"
B "results and determentation"
A I don't want to get you in trouble, go"
B "F everybody, I don't give a f man. No matte what happens here you are my friend."
A "That is what I always thought" "I will try and gather myself"
B "you will. You are not going to try, you are going to. and if you are thinking you can't then it's bull sh*t. I know you are way stronger than that"
A "it's just with no food and not eating"
B "dude, I am on week two for me, come on"
A "yeah, but then again you got someone that can pat your back"
B "Yeah, I know I got you. And it's an advantage, but it's also a big disadvantage"
A "Are you telling me that you don't know about Hayden and Kristin"
B "Okay I know that they two are together right? but rachel told me she talked to Hay and Hay was like wer are only friends/ But Kris told rachel that Kris controls Hay's vote"
A "Yeah, no question"
A "I will do the meeting and then big time. I got your back don't worry"
B "No, at the meeting you play the sympathy card! Kathy has been playing it big time so you play the sh*t out of it! You are not going out there to get the votes, but you just want to clear the air and apologize. Say you have been emotional, stressed out, been a have not, it's just been a hard week and then pull back. Guarantee they will come to you. I don't want you to f'n go. I wouuld have switched places you if I thought for a second you were going home! you deserve to be here."
A "No You have rachel so you can deal with being here. I can't"
B "You have to believe in your self and don't let f'n self pity swallow you up"
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